For those who don’t know what I’m talking about, look up the Njoy Pure Wand. The name is absurd but whatever.
See also: FuckmeQueer. Talk to me.
— doppelgänger
— Audre Lorde, Uses of the Erotic: The Erotic as Power
(Source: fuckmedapperqueer)
I know you want to see me tremble, but I will hiss before I cry. The unrelenting sting of the belt drives me to turn and back into a corner, daring you to continue.
At this point it becomes more a contest between halves of my self than between you and I. Glowering up at you, hackles raised, I reach to fold myself back in, cut myself off before I can retaliate. But you want me to push back.
You are no longer swinging the belt, just standing, watching me. It remains in your hand, it remains your defense. As I seem to quiet, you step closer but I curl tighter and snarl, springloaded. You sit. The belt sits in your lap. After watching each other for a minute, I stretch forward an inch, two, wanting to be closer. You reach out a hand and I flinch sharply but don’t retreat. Slowly we come together and I bury into your chest, your steady breathing calms my quick and shivering heart.
You ask if I am ready. I nod, whisper “yes SIr,” though I don’t know for what. You reach behind you for rope and, taking my wrists, quietly bind them in front of me. Leaving a long tail, you stand and pull, an indication i should follow. I do but remain on my knees close to the floor.
You lead me to your room, to the rug on the floor. ”Take off my pants,” you tell me. I rise to my knees and pull awkwardly at each side, soon forsaking bound wrists for teeth. ”Careful!” you warn, but I make sure not to bite you.
At your command I pull off your underwear too. I press my face against your bare thigh and you shove me over, back to the floor.
“Hands and knees, ass in the air.”
I wriggle over and press my chest down and ass up. ”Stay.” I hear you turn to rummage for something, hear the clicks of your harness.
“hmmm, you’ve been pretty good today so I’m going to let you suck me off before I fuck you.”
As I move to sit up you grab my hair and deftly shove my face on your cock, wrapping your hands in my hair and holding me down as I sputter in surprise.
I catch up and join your rhythm, pooling saliva on my tongue and diving deep so the tip of your cock reaches the sticky place at the back of my throat. I long to wrap my hands around your hips but instead i work a few fingers behind your cock, working to keep my jaw relaxed as I do so.
You groan.
I glance up at you to find I meet your gaze. Your face is set in concentration to remain standing. “More” you demand.
I brace myself against you with my feet, letting your cock pull almost completely out of my mouth before catching and sliding back down. You push too deep and I gag, pull back.
“Yes you can” you tell me, yanking my face back into position. You shove your cock further down my throat. I jerk but you hold me there until I calm, and after a moment your release my head.
“Kiss it and do it again.”
I sit up to readjust my balance. I look at your cock, gleaming with my spit. I glance up at you, slightly more hesitant than before. I kiss the tip of your cock and wrap my lips around the head, softly using my teeth to shove it against your clit. ”That’s a good slut” you say, groaning.
“Go ahead.”
I slack my jaw and push down on you as far as I can, releasing only to do it again. i build back up a rhythm until you grasp the back of my head again and hold me down. I recoil slightly. “Breathe,” you remind me. I relax, flattening my tongue as much as possible.
Unsupported, you can’t find quite the right angle. ”Off” you say in the same moment as you shove me backward. I fall over and you grab the tail still attached to my wrists. I scramble to follow.
You pull me to my feet and shove me backward at the bed. I jump up. You grab my ankles and jerk me to the edge, shoving your cock head to hilt into my cunt. i groan and arch into you as you start building long, slow, deep thrusts.
“Thank you Sir” I mumble between breaths.
You lean over me, your hands gripped on my shoulders and your breath on my chest. You bite a nipple, the sharp pain jolting my nerves. I fumble with my hands, not knowing what to do because i can’t grab hold of anything but myself.
As we rock together you shove two fingers in my mouth, letting me suck them as i had your cock. With each thrust i open a bit more for you. i relax into the mattress, feeling every breath and moan shuddering through your body.
You pull your fingers out of my mouth and replace them with a bandana. You yank my head up and whisper in my ear “yes my good slut, that’s a good fuckhole. Want me to fill all your holes today?”
I’m pretty sure dirty talk is the key to getting me off.
If I asked you to take over, would you do that for me? I’m so tired. I need you to hold me. I need you to do everything.
Here. Take off my glasses. Untie my shoes and I’ll step out of them. Unbutton my shirt. I’m not wearing a bra. Undo my belt and my pants. Slide them down over my hips. I’ll step out of them and sit on the edge of the bed. Pull my socks off.
You leave my boxers in place, but it’s okay; you can take those too. I’m raw tonight. I’m naked. Hold me on top of the blankets. Leave the overhead light on. It’s okay.
Pull my head and shoulders onto your lap. Rock me back and forth. Stroke my side, my hair. I’m going to cry now. Big, wet tears will roll off my cheeks. Just hold me. It’s okay.
Lay down and straighten yourself on the bed. Let me curl up into your side. Put your arms around me. Kiss me. My eyes are shut tight. Hold me. It’s okay.
You let me sink like this. You watch me go down deep. You whisper hushing sounds. You are unintelligible but soothing. You take my head in your hands and you squeeze me tight and kiss my forehead. I feel secure in your grip. Kiss my mouth, just our lips touching, softly. Stay here. My lips rest against you.
I open my eyes and stare at you. Now you’re crying. I imagine for a moment that you are crying my tears for me. How beautiful and loving.
Later, after I’ve slept, I’ll wake up and fuck you. But for now just hold me. It’s okay.
4.16.12
I’d have you stand, naked, hands clasped behind your neck. On display for me. I’d walk around you slowly, admiring my handiwork. The click of my boots causes your cunt to drip. My fingers trace your marks. You shiver, goosebumps erupting down your spine. I drag my teeth on the magenta roses that bloomed on your hips. My tongue travels the ridges of your welts.
Without warning, my fist sinks into your dappled flesh. You stumble forward but remain standing, body tense for the blow you know is coming. And it meets your thighs, pummeling your body with pleasurepain.
4.16.12
My skin is hot from the sun. Come feel the heat from my cunt. Lick the salt off my neck as my fists fuck you into oblivion. Drip. Sweat. Bleed. Cum for me.